Im going to do a last post of 09,

despite the fact that I have to wake up in less that 3 hours to catch my flight to hk to spent the last day of 09.

Last day of 09 today(its 2.21am) and if i could sum up the year in a single word, I guess it has to be love. 09 acquainted me with many new faces and the one thing i've learnt this year would be not to judge someone by their looks. Looks are so deceiving that it can really suck you in and out.

Im not that little innocent girl that everyone knew 1 year back. Everyone said i've changed and I know I've changed a lot a lot, indeed, but I feel very happy about this change in me really !!

This year I lost the love of my life, N. This boy taught me so much in life & I really thank him for making me become the today me. He make me realise that one can never believe guy's words. They can say how much they love you and willing to give up everything for you but at the end, they are all lies. It was hell after losing him but I know that I had to go through everything to make me stronger. Perhaps the ultimate reasons lies bcuz he's my first. I loved him for the confidence he had in himself, that he never be wary of the other guys around me. I loved him for being very magnanimous, always giving in to me. I loved him for his sweet talks despite i knew they were lies. If you ever gets to see this, I just wanna tell you that there's a limit to everything. You've played a great role in my life and I'll keep the good times that we shared, deep down in my heart. However, the scar remains no matter what. Anyway, a big thank you for everything. Im not going to wish you happiness cuz I want you to be the one who wishes me that.

This year I grew close to a really awesome girl, Mosta. She made my days in London very meaningful. Stayingover at her house everyweek was the best thing ever. We would always be laughing for the most stupid reasons and sleeping as late as 6am. We go shopping, have nice food and party all day long. Most importantly, we are like the same kind of people. Our character is like so similar and we think the same way, towards our life and towards guys?! We pratically bitch about everyone which I know is a very bad thing to do, but tell me, who doesent bitch oh come on are you guys in 21st century !!!!

This year I drift apart from Shadow. All the blame lies on your visa. Why did your visa had to expire. Why did u not renew it earlier. Why did you leave without saying a proper goodbye. Why did you not manage to spent quality time with me before you go back to cn. Why did you had to leave !!!! But omg i cant believe it im going to spent the first min of 2010 with you tmr. Everything starts anew in 2010(:

This year I drift apart from Baby Huimin cuz most of my time is spent all in UK, and this girl here has found the love of her life and sooo blessed in her current relationship and ditching her best friend away. I hate you so much for that but i hope everything would be back to be like the past when I come back to sg for good.

This year everything has been good with my family. They have and will always be my priority. I know that no matter what happenes in life, I'll always have them beside me and their unconditional love for me.

This is not over yet and there's still so much to write for 09 but Im too tired to go on furthur. I'll update when im at the airport later if i feel like it.

Sure everything wasn't all fine and dandy throughout 09 but as always I still choose to leave the bad behind. Anyways, this year the impossible was made possible but this has to be kept to myself heeheexzxzx.

Buzz buzz buzzzzzzzzzz.
'Not out on a friday night?'

Sigh sigh sigh, yes its friday night, and its raining!!!
I just went through a fanatic rain, lol the umbrella turn upside down wtf?!
We fooled around, giving out our ultimate laughter in the rain^^

I've kinda decided that I wont go out this weekend,
cuz
I guessed at this point of time, only staying here would make me feel happier.
I need to get away from everything !!!!!!

Yes I know im escaping from reality and I have face it back sooner or later.
But doing what makes yourself happy is the best damn thing in life isnt it!!

不在乎天长地久，
但毕竟曾经拥有。。。